jOURNAL: Devin Vonn
Shackles
Its hard living life when your future holds nothing but the negative. Yes, you brought those things upon yourself but that doesn’t make it any easier to cope with. Feels like a burden that is tightening its grip around you, letting you know that you aren’t going anywhere. Its hard. Right now, everyone is worrying about themselves, wondering why I keep to myself and why don’t I partake in sharing my life with others. Reason for that, its hard. How can I share myself with someone else when all that I’m going to bring them is misfortune. Hard times. And a life full of misery. No one deserves that. I wish that these shackles would release me but I know its just the beginning.
Love Me
Loving me is no longer simple. In order to win me over you have to go above and beyond. No that doesn’t mean taking me out to Wendy’s instead of McDonalds. You have to show me that you love me. Prove it to me so that questioning you isn’t even an option. Embrace me every opportunity that you get so that I know I’m never alone. Kiss me, so I know the passion between us is still there. Most importantly, tell me. Tell me you love me because I’m not a mind reader. I don’t know what you’re thinking. In return, the words I love you will come easily.
Falling in Love
My guard is up. The walls that surround my heart are reinforced with barriers that protect against any threat. I’m used to the same ole game of tag, but I’ve out grown them this time. This time, I’m sitting on the sidelines and I’m going to watch from a distance. You think you can try and get to me, well good luck to you. I would like to see you try. Falling in love is no longer easy to be but its a risk that I willingly allowed myself to take. Maybe the longer I wait, the more of a guarantee I will have when I actually find someone that I like. Maybe. Either way I’m in no rush. I will gladly do whatever I have to in order to avoid any form of heartbreak.
Anonymous
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Tag You’re It!
You said you liked me. That you would always be there when I needed you in my life. No let downs. No drama. Just the love that is gradually beginning to bloom before us. I gave you my word. My promise that I would be there for you when times got hard. That I would be the hope for you to hold onto when all seemed lost in the world. It was good, then you let go. I tried to reach back but you were already farther than my arms could stretch. Playing a game of tag, you would run back and forth into my life. I’m getting tired, my bones are growing weary. My energy is no longer as high as it once was. Its time for me to let go cause I can no longer take this game. You either want me or you don’t. Stop stringing me along.
